Xia Junsu - Tree Covered In Dew (이슬 머금은 나무)
Hahaha, I just have to include this in because the lyrics are so simple yet so sweet. And no, I'm not being bias here excuse me.
I think it's just like what Fel (or was it Shimin?) mentioned last time, sometimes you really need this someone who, even if you don't say anything, knows what you are thinking or feeling of, gives you a big hug and say, "no worries, I'm here for you today to shelter you from all the rain and wind". Like ~magic~. HAHAHA. But yes, I know it's just impossible because there's no way a person will /magically/ know what thoughts are you lost in today.
So I've concluded that all of us are still individuals, whether attached or not. Only that when you have someone by your side, the tendency of sharing your thoughts is higher, though they will still not know of any spells to read your mind.
Being in a communications course, really, doesn't make me a psychologist; Even worse, I think I lost the trickery to go about with people using words and emotion. So it really saddens me when people tell me that they don't think they cannot communicate with me anymore. And to think I still want to continue being a communicator, either in visuals, words or PR-related. Such a failure.
I have parents who do not know how to communicate with each other, who talks behind each others' back, and starts screaming shouting quarreling whenever their opinions crash. Then their relationship cracks and they blame the other party for it. Unfortunately, I'm always this middle person who gets all their leftover anger and frustration from their cracks, hence I always know what the two are thinking. I really don't understand why they can't work their problems out properly straightaway and have to leave their thoughts behind for me to 'settle'. It's not like by telling me I can help you sort out both of your thoughts.
Even at work, I became this middle person as well. (oh gosh, why am I always in this middleman situation?) Yeah, the same o' things-I-cannot-say-but-have-to-listen.
So I guess gradually I became... quieter? Keeping everything to myself, do not feel like talking after work hours because I have been talking all day at work and have to deal with unreasonable customers with absolute politeness, and what else?
Sometimes I just need that hug. So nice huh, when I read the title of Junsu's song. LOL. Tree covered in dew, so blissful - whether you view it in the tree's point of view or an outsider's point of view. I think even if you are the dew, you will feel blissful too because you are with the big tree.
Hahaha, rubbish post is rubbish. I'm just writing for the sake of writing - to get rid of all my fears and tears. Now that I'm feeling better mentally, but still physically down due to illnesses, I shall sleep. :)
Good night!
(I will post something a lil' more meaningful next time xD)
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