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I've been drinking so much that I think I've drank more in the past month than I have in one year in Singapore. It's crazy, alcohol here is so cheap, more than half the price of Singapore's. I wonder how my parents will react if I told them I've been drinking this much. Hell, I don't even tell them when I go drinking/clubbing... and they will probably force me to quit exchange and come back immediately if I tell them hahaha.

Well yes, I'm drinking again HAHAHA. In my room, with this brand called Gorbatschow. It's mixed with lemon, so it's a really nice and refreshing drink but the alcohol content is 10% LOL. So after half a can, my eyes are bloodshot.

我有敷面膜的時間，把這一個月多的心情和感受寫下來。

140820 - 140903 義大利旅遊
照片什麼的都不po了，因為太麻煩哈哈哈。但在這短短的14天，收穫真不少。從佛羅倫薩開始的美妙到結束，以前在電視或網路上看到的景色都親眼看見了。人造的美或是自然的美，我想這輩子也忘不掉。

看到消息的那一瞬間就起雞皮疙瘩。天啊，怎麼連沈氏的故事都成真啊？？
雖然那時候我腦裡的畫面是挺清晰的，但好⋯⋯呃覺得自己有點小噁心⋯⋯

上次的事雖然期待過但沒成真，不知道這次要不要再期待多一次。

No it didn't unfold. >(

And it's not because it's just my imagination but because there's a 絆腳石.
Le sigh, when things are not meant to be, it just means it's not meant to be. No use wishing for more.

This... I don't know how to describe this happening... was actually one of my imaginations a while back. Then the beginning part of it became a reality... o__________o (woookkaayyy)

It kinda gives me creeps at first, because I NEVER expected any of my imaginations to become reality (they are all full of ridicule e.g. me meeting Changmin in Europe, or seeing JYJ performing a special stage performance at a TVXQ concert etc.) But at the same time somewhere deep down in my heart I have this fluttering feeling that I couldn't ignore.

I know I'm wasting too much time on this person. But all the anger didn't get out when that bastard got to Round 3, and I don't have Fabian with me to rant anymore, so I figured that typing this out here would be the best.

That bastard was a friend. WAS. I just mentally ended our relationship because he assumed the worst out of me when he didn't get what he wanted. Whether intentionally done or not was another thing; he was just being a sore thumb throughout (and Fabian agrees with me) and it got to the point where I apologized for giving him all assumptions that he had about me. I FUCKING APOLOGIZE TO THAT BASTARD CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? And that's when I decided enough is enough. Yes, the discussion may have started off as "work" and cutting him off on a personal level may not be fair. But the things that he said about fairness, authority, sugar coating, effort, etc is definitely affecting me on a personal level. I got through two rounds of rubbish with him, which took 3.5 hours, and a third round at 5.30 in the fucking morning. And I'm sure with all the rubbish that I've gotten, I have every right to cut all of this off now.

そう！旧正月からずっとお金お金お金って考えている。
怒るね、自分に。なぜこの状況に陥るんの...
その酷い人を憎むようにしたいけど、これは自分のせいね。人が信頼すぎ。

2014 had been a very endearing year.

And if I have to think back, it actually felt like 2008. It was the year of extremes – on one hand I experienced lots of fun, love and laughter; the other I experienced stress and sadness. To list, 2008 was the year I first play truant, took my O’levels, fell in love with DBSK, found my aspiration in designing, etc…

I know you probably stalk me on every social media platform that I have everyday. Or maybe almost.
And I wish you would stop it.

I sincerely, seriously, really wish that you would stop.

Sometimes I feel very fortunate being here.
And other times I feel that I am less that all the friends that I have acquainted myself with here.
But in times to come, I really hope I can be a better friend to all.
No more tears; only happiness.