小魚兒的文字天地

It hurts a lot when a friend says that there is no trust between us. And even more so when you had trust in him but yet he says otherwise.

I think I'm more upset over the fact that he thinks I left him to fend himself if he can't make it when obviously in actual fact, if he just ask or say it, I would have help him with it. It's because I trusted you enough for you to be able to make it, that's why I said that way. Yet you had to ruin everything by saying that you think there is no trust between us and flip tables at everyone, just because it doesn't go your way now. It's not like it's my fault in the that they decided to screw up and decide it that way in the first place anyway.

Yes I'm really happy as to how my holiday break went; it was indeed very "healing" in my opinion for my body, mind and soul. So before I move on to my second year in school, I shall record it down here, least my mind goes blank and forgets everything again. Hahaha somehow this blog here and my Instagram has become some sort of a memory book for me.


//TRAVELS//

它強迫我把皮給換了 嗚嗚～ 我要回我的馬卡龍啦～～

//換成大象因為那是在中偶吧最喜歡的動物。本想換成小鴨來代表俊秀的，但皮沒怎麼好看⋯⋯//

喜歡這兒～ ♥ 可以放心的說心事。
雖然說還是又點害怕的啦 那麼公開的。但已經慢慢把恐懼放開了。

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看著你們猶豫不定真讓我擔心
就不能有多一點野心多點自信

你們已經是附有翅膀的蝴蝶了

「家」這個詞的意思我有點捉摸不透。更不了解的是那些立志想當個像他們父母的人或感謝父母一直在他們的學習過程中陪伴并支持著的人。

我的家庭其實很“獨特” － 自己的孩子在學校舉辦的活動都不願來支持；熬夜做作業都漠不關心；甚麼誣賴與不信認都能搬出來⋯⋯在這樣的狀況下，我也就一直以來都沒有把父母當成榜樣看待。在沒有把父母當我人生中的典範下，沒有他們的指導與關心，自己的一片天還真的說是靠自己挖出來的。

這幾天一直都在哭。為了金俊秀 哈哈哈。
我都被我自己煩到了。一想到他就哭想到他就哭。
唉 說真的，我很不想自己這樣的。但一想到能去他的演唱會的機會就這樣擦肩而過，我就鼻酸。

The two dates that are clearly etched in my mind – 29 April 2010 and 1 May 2010 – those were the dates that I saw Junsu for the first and last time respectively.

It has been almost 4 years and somehow I'm really surprised at myself that I still have the same amount of passion for this man now as compared to the past. To him who gave me so much strength, courage and most importantly my dream, the least I could do is just to give him back the same amount of encouragement if there is an opportunity.

22歲的生日，我會哭。

是開心的哭呢，還是傷心的哭，這我就不知道了。

I don't blame those who don't understand the arts. I just pity them for not wanting to understand it.
Especially those who are already involved in it but are still not interested; it is so obvious what your intentions are.