小魚兒的文字天地

For the emotions that I am unable express in writing, I've kept it in my heart and let it out in my tears today. There were so many things that I wanted to write and tell you but when I saw the paper, my mind turned blank and I could only note down whatever bits and pieces that was left floating in my head. Things like – university and hall life would be much more fun and enjoyable with you around, regretting that I didn't meet up with you more often after we went off in different ways since secondary three, and not being able to be a good and caring friend whom you can go to when you had your problems. I have envisioned the letter to be several pages long but I know I stop short. Somehow, I felt that it would be my last time seeing you the way you currently are now and that's the reason why I was so compelled to write you a letter and send you a gift. Three years down the road, you may choose not to return back here; five years down the road, we would not have been the same person as we are now; seven years on... well, I don't know. To be honest, it really feels like losing a friend. Because I know fashion is something you cannot really do in Singapore; because I know you have to leave in order to succeed; and therefore I know things may not be as simple as just attending a university overseas and coming back here after you complete your course. There were really a lot of regrets for me and in our friendship. And it’s not until that day when you left that I fully understood. Especially after going through my few weeks in university, I know how hard it is to find someone who has the same thoughts, the same attitude and the same tempo as me. I’m really happy that you can further your dreams, I mean after all, getting into a university in UK is really tough but you managed to do it! But it also really pains me to see such a fantastic friend like you go… even more so when I have this gut feel that you may not come back. I don't know if I'm imagining it when you mumbled your words that day but anyway if I didn’t hear wrongly, I wanted to say thank you, really, from the bottom of my heart, for feeling the same way that I did (I can’t really remember what I wrote but I guess it’s along those lines of “glad to have you in my life” hahaha). All the best to you and good luck, my dear friend. And I really hope we can keep in touch and meet-up whenever you come back. (I guess this serves as a continuation to what I wrote to you /laughs/ damn long.)