小魚兒的文字天地

有時候就是又個自覺說，我是個被社會遺棄的小孩。
因為人緣不好，加上又不會說話討人歡喜，
雖然知道那是對自己很吃虧的個性，但本身就話不多說的我真的也沒甚麼辦法來跟別人搞得像很熟似的。

2012年 7月11日：
在UW上班的最後一天。

帶給我許多快樂的地方 （雖然煩惱也有不少 哈哈哈）。

Xia Junsu - Tree Covered In Dew (이슬 머금은 나무)


Hahaha, I just have to include this in because the lyrics are so simple yet so sweet. And no, I'm not being bias here excuse me.

開心的一天，就值得寫個開心的部落格篇！
2012年5月25號，星期五：小學生莊思怡終於畢業了！
雖然是沒很期待畢業典，但上台時的前一刻還真的有點抖抖抖的感覺。呵呵
三年確實過得很快啊～ 咔嚓，那些歡樂與煎熬的時光就這樣過了。
唯一想謝謝的就是那些教誨了我很多事物的教師們，莊思怡真心地感謝你們了。
嗯～ 我還記得頒獎人跟我的對話：
Jin: Do you think you can do well in the future?
Me: I guess so...
Jin: What do you mean? Of course you can do well! Good luck!
呵呵，很安慰人的一句話。謝謝。
接著也是2012年5月25號，星期五：
就是接到我期待已久的電話！
真的好久啊，一個星期了...
但現在真的抱著好興奮好有自信的心情去面對！
我一定會成功！一定會！一定會！
吳老師言：“努力向上”
要相信以後的日子會更好過，更輕鬆自在，也更有信心能達到2012年的目標。
希望一切順利啦！
呵呵，真是感謝今天所有的一切呀～～
莊思怡真心感恩了。
吼吼，我也該是時候去買一買俊秀的專輯了～
^_^

Ever since entering polytechnic, I've come to distrust the relationships form between men. Backstabs, betrayals and even to use each relationship to one's utmost benefit are things that I've seen from people who enter and go in my life as a student. While here I am standing as a Year 3 student and about to leave the school, I think back and reflect where has gone wrong in my polytechnic life that I suffer so much from the effects of human usage, as I call it – where one only thinks of himself/herself and utilises all connections he/she has to gain what he/she wants.

While this is out in the society, a portion of the distrust, surprisingly, comes from home. Yes it may be shocking but seemingly the people in my family are measuring a value of a person in monetary terms. Both my parents are like that – supporting a child in education not because it is to the child's benefit but is so that when the child enters the working world, he/she can feed the parents' human greed for luxury. And when the child is unable to satisfy the ugly human craving, he/she will then be term as "useless", or worst, labelled as "unfilial", a word that can be easily spread amongst aunties, neighbours and even your own family.

要來這兒勉勵勉勵自己一下。哈哈哈。

至於畢業後的事，就等真的畢業後再想吧。
反正現在也沒時間沒精力費腦力。

我很怕暴風雨，尤其是凌晨的。

風又大又吵，一直吼吼吼的，好像有甚麼禽獸從天堂降臨世上要把我吃掉似的。
雨也是，一直噼哩啪啦的，也很吵。

堆積著的問題，哇哈哈哈 我無能為力啊～

我好想躺下。 .__________________.

一個人時，是最好胡「思」亂想的時機。
不用顧慮周圍的環境，不用擔心旁人的眼神，
也就更可以很放肆地去想一些被禁止的事情。

現在我終於了解，為何每次傷心時會那麼喜歡聽這首歌。
因為它在訴說的不是一首悲傷的情歌，而是“失去”。