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I've been drinking so much that I think I've drank more in the past month than I have in one year in Singapore. It's crazy, alcohol here is so cheap, more than half the price of Singapore's. I wonder how my parents will react if I told them I've been drinking this much. Hell, I don't even tell them when I go drinking/clubbing... and they will probably force me to quit exchange and come back immediately if I tell them hahaha.

Well yes, I'm drinking again HAHAHA. In my room, with this brand called Gorbatschow. It's mixed with lemon, so it's a really nice and refreshing drink but the alcohol content is 10% LOL. So after half a can, my eyes are bloodshot.

But anyway, that aside, the reason why I'm typing now it's not because of the alcohol but because today was really an eventful day. Long story short, my friends missed the first train as they couldn't prepare on time and I missed the second one because they didn't tell me the timing and I assumed things. I was furious actually because of their initial attitude towards Jan (also because I don't like waiting) and they boarded the second train without me /sigh/ but the walk to Hauptbahnhof cooled me down.

Friends. Sigh.

I'm pretty proud of myself actually because I really wanted to walk off by myself and fuck care everyone when they told me they boarded the train, but I didn't. I'm not sure why I didn't explode because I know fully well that I can, given the circumstances. I guess it could be the journey to Italy has trained me well hahaha. But I did something that I've never done before today and that was to shrug off my friend when she came over to apologise. Yes, I was that furious. Even more furious than when my flatmates didn't wash their plates and cutlery after cooking for WEEKS and I sort of exploded.

Taurus people can be very patient when it comes to all the shit that we receive, but shit do pile up and when it becomes too much, you have to know that you've given us too much shit.

I guess it's a good lesson today, to learn how to be more independent and depend less on friends. (oh God I can hear Fabian nagging at me for being too closed up. But you see, how can you not be when you get so much shit for depending on others?) Borrowing Changmin's words, "life is living alone and dying alone" HAHAHAHA.

So yep, solo trip to Cologne and watching ONE OK ROCK's concert coming soon! I really can't wait :)